My name is S___ J___ and I am a painter. I am good at it. And I will overcome. Overcome what? The great enemy of distraction, lack of focus, and moodiness. I perused the requirements for the application of the Grad program Yale. "I can do this" I thought. Albeit, it will take me some years to save adequate money. But with my in-depth study of painting and it's materials, I should be able to get into a fancy program. Ever since I embraced I'm a painter and accepted that everything else is superfluous, it has made my life a hell of a lot easier. What once was a hurricane of so many interests, is now a focused nimbus. I also understand I'm a human with flavor who appreciates beauty. But at least I choose painting to indulge in 9 times out of 10 when I have the opportunity. Hateful thoughts drain me. Buying things I want instead of need and require leave me empty. Lust exhausts me. I need more work in focus. But I'm getting there. I am eager to be an intellectual at this. They call it "Master". I am producing real paintings. They are beautiful. I am becoming one with my materials. It feels good to be this person who truly understands I am made of this. This is my happiness.
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