Very depressed and needy of change as of late. I'm thinking I want job that pays me better. I need a job the uses my brain. I also need the ability to buy myself things. It is too rough over-thinking the purchase of a toothbrush. I've been applying for jobs. I got a call back from a gallery that wouldn't pay me more than I'm making at my coffeeshop job. I know it isn't personal but I think it's insulting. Wanted to go to the gym but not really. Wanting physical validation but not really. Instead I am sleeping and napping and bathing. I received a scary letter in the mail from a lawyer regarding some unpaid HOA bills and a threat to put a lein on my unit. Makes me so angry for so many reasons. Not quite understanding my own self-pity. Sometimes I feel like I am barely hanging on. Maybe I just need better shoes.
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