They are finally letting her die. I can finally have some closure. I want to go to her apartment and smell her things. I want to see her mess, her bathtub, her ramshackle cabinet. I want a pair of her shoes and maybe something else. All in all, I just want to be alone in her room and say goodbye. That mangled corpse is nothing but a rotting heap of nothingness to me. At least her soul is living vibrantly still like a photograph everywhere all over her apartment. When it comes down to it, I'm heart broken. I don't have a buddy anymore. Will suggests I dump on my other friends and make buddies with them. But there's a reason I never got as close with them as I was close with Renata. I still don't intend to get close to them. What's the point? They're not available anyway. I just wish I could have spent my life with her.
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